April.

It's April.

I hyperventilate at just the thought of it. Time seems to go in such a hurry that it'd be August before I could even say "wait!"

And yet, here I am doing what I do best: Procrastinate. 

I hate that word. I hate how I'm so easy to be fooled by how much time I still have. I hate how I use it to replace the word 'Lazy'.

It's April.

I'd have my final presentation ever in my history of being an Architecture student in May.

My final presentation with external panels in June.

Then July.

and then..

Then there'd be August.

Six Years What Have You Done?

I am in  my 6th and final year studying architecture. 

6th.

(well including 2 years working in the field then 8)

It baffles me of what 6 years in this field can do to you. Just the other day I was asked of why i took this field: was it passion or just because I wanted a job? The question startled me at one point, as I stood there with a blank expression; blank, because I forgot how that passion felt when I first started my uni life in 2008. I was so burning with passion then. They said you needed 2 degrees to complete your studies, I said who cares I have what it takes! with a very determined face.

Well, that passion sort of died along the way, I'll have to admit.

Not until my 5th year, during the readings for my research proposals have I realised that architects are actually really crazy people who imagine too much, that they claim to hold responsible to society's everyday life. Why, architects? Why the burden? Why result to such powerful claim???.... is what I'd ask.

But I guess, while I'm still figuring out why I took this field, I will always come back to one answer: We are just programmed this way. If you want an exhibition centre to generate money, then we will build you an exhibition centre to accommodate tens and thousands of attendees. If you want an iconic tower to show power, then we will build you the highest skyscraper smacked in the middle of your already congested city.

This is how we're programmed to function in society, but then I ask myself, is this what I'm trained for? I hope I get the answer one day. No more the immature "i took architecture because I love to draw" type of answer. No. That was the 18-year-old-idiot-me who has the knowledge in the field the size of a pea.

It would be a downright lie if I told you I never regretted taking architecture, yet here I am in my final year. Just that one.. final... agonizing... push.

3 Cities

hello!

I had a stressful week last week preparing for my Design critique session yesterday, it's a miracle I got through it miraculously all in one piece (mentally. yes i'm exaggerating.. Because I can) so I have the whole week doing nothing which I reeeally love. And I mean nothing because a) it's crit week and I've already had mine yesterday, and b) I am totally broke. Best not dwell on the latter any longer because, well, that's just how it is =_=

2013 has been the year where I've done and gone through so much to achieve where I am today. It wasn't easy but I'm glad I went through it anyway, even though I felt like giving up a few times (applying for a student loan was a nightmare). The support I got from the people around me was awesome, because they're awesome as the awesomest people could be and I'm not even exaggerating this time.

So this time I'm gonna upload some pictures since a personal blog isn't complete without any photos. At least, that's what I think :D

in 2013, I have been to

Paris

London

Istanbul

Which is why I'm broke. Hahaha. But totally worth it! Paris is a beautiful city, London is really modern the subways are awesome, and Istanbul is just breathtaking! I would want to come back to these cities. For our honeymoon maybe? wink wink~

2014 trip has not been planned yet, I hope to go somewhere on a budget. Not really digging the shop-like-crazy travels.