on my free time

the office feels free today. my colleague whom i share the room with is out to kk for urgent matters and i am left alone here in this room. a part of me enjoys this; i love being alone. and that colleague of mine never stop his work for even one minute, which i, the queen of procrastination, is against.

well not now im not the queen anymore. i hope.

so during  my spare time in the office, i have been going through properties lately (on mudah, of course). cant wait to own a place for ourselves, where we make our own rules, decorate our own space, wake up on our own pace. 

but that wont be anytime soon, im afraid. husband says its not the right time to buy a property when we still have debts to pay and houses are sold at through the roof prices; a nice new double-storey intermediate house would be myr450k minimum. even that minimum is at a flood location -_- an old one-storey house at 198k would cost a fortune to maintain (and even that is at a low cost area).

but that doesn't stop me from dreaming.

there's a lot to go through before deciding to commit to a house. a) where to settle down: husband in miri, im in kuching, his parents in kl and he might move to HQ in kl if his work asks him to. so where do we settle? b) house prices, as above mentioned, and c) our priorities: a good house with good location that would need a whole bunch of money, an ok but small house but at an ok location, a good spacious house at a 'meh' location, or a very small low cost house at prime area. 

husband's coming this weekend, i guess this might be the main topic for the both of us... that'd be nice, house hunting as a weekend activity!

oh wowee lookie here im going on about properties you're old now ween boohoo

what's up, Buttercup?

I am a married woman now. this sentence still ring strangely to me somehow and im still getting used to be called Puan or selecting 'mrs' during flight bookings, but I'm enjoying it so far.

It's been long since I've typed anything here, my last post was in April. Nobody reads these stuff anymore, i think. I guess this is a good place to express my unexpressed feelings since nobody reads it.

I am struggling, really. My husband and I, we only get to see each other on weekends and even that is every OTHER weekend. sometimes we dont get to see each other for 3 weeks. Im living at my parents in kuching, and he in miri working. i didnt want to work at first, and since miri almost has no work opportunities as a graduate architect, i just wanted to stay beside my husband everyday. but then i need a job, and considering our current economical situation, now isnt the right time to be lazying around at home not adding in to the household income.

i think im warming up to my job, i am currently working hard to be an experienced professional architect soon (not graduate architect, as my boss would say the graduate title seem 'unprofessional' somehow). the first few weeks, i hated everything: the meetings, chasing government officers for drawing approvals, meeting deadlines, all the boring paperwork and documentation stuff. im warming up though.. slowly but surely. i hope.

2016 is a year full of anticipation, i feel like im coming into a very new chapter. new husband, new job, new mindset and praying for some more newer things (and pray, new person) to come. like our own house, for instance. but lets not venture into that now...

April.

It's April.

I hyperventilate at just the thought of it. Time seems to go in such a hurry that it'd be August before I could even say "wait!"

And yet, here I am doing what I do best: Procrastinate. 

I hate that word. I hate how I'm so easy to be fooled by how much time I still have. I hate how I use it to replace the word 'Lazy'.

It's April.

I'd have my final presentation ever in my history of being an Architecture student in May.

My final presentation with external panels in June.

Then July.

and then..

Then there'd be August.